I was watching something on the box and the topic was to do with weight loss and feeling good about one's self.
The host of the show had written a book on weightloss and I presume the guests had used her book to lose weight and set thier lives straight….(I caught the program half way done!)
A recurring theme from the guests in narrating thier experiences went something like this:
"I did not love myself or like myself, so I ate and ate and just felt that I did not deserve anything good"
One guest went on to say:
"Since I felt I did not deserve anything good, I stopped eating, bathing and combing my hair"
And so it went, all 7/8 guests said something to that effect… and one would not be wrong in concluding that the host/author was peddling the idea that people may be overweight or underweight due to the fact that they do not love themselves.
Now my question here is this: Does not loving thyself equate with low self-esteem? And when do the occassional bouts of low self esteem slip into the hating thyself category.
I have a confession to make, I have never ever not loved myself. I have never ever thought that I do not deserve anything good. If anything, I have always felt, I deserve all the good things that could happen to a person ;-). What I am trying to say is that I do not understand when people say "I did not love myself, I do not think I deserve anything good"… I just don't get that way of thinking.
I believe like everyone on earth, I suffer the occassional bout of low self esteem or hyper self awareness due to whatever anormality I may be feeling that day…eg 2 days ago it was bigus forehead awaretisis, some days it jelly belly-sis and I used to have serious case of Teethus Focus….. but I do not feel it ever warranted me not loving myself.
I LOVE MYSELF. I REALLY LIKE MYSELF as well. With all my hangups, my big mouth, and all that… I gotta admit I love myself. I have not always been the best person I can be.. .but let it be said here and now and recorded for time to come MREMBO LOVES HERSELF (and on special days, she thinks she is all that and then some!!!!!!)
Have a self loving day!!