I want to say something about being gay and I cannot seem to get my words out right.
I was watching Oprah today and the topic of disccusion was “when did I know I was gay”. On it the panel of men told thier stories of how they knew they were gay and when. The show later concluded with a mother who had found out her daughter was gay when she was 17 (the daughter) …..however when the daughter was 10 years old she had said to her mother that she thought she was gay because she liked girls. It was heartbreaking to hear both sides of the stories. The mother’s loss of dream and the daughter’s difficulty of dealing with her mother’s reaction.
This is my stand on the whole Homosexuality thing.
I used to believe that it was a SIN and that all gay people would go to hell. That is what my bible taught me and what I was brought up to believe. To be honest, I think I only became aware of this stuff when I was in high school around form 3 or form 4. It was not something that was talked about at home ever! Except when dad said….as an explanation to why a certain man’s son was gay
Dad: “that is the problem with sending your children to Europe for education when they are in thier teens, they learn all these bad manners, if he had left them here, they would not have developed those useless manners and would be more stable…”
However after much discussion with straight friends and watching lots of TV documentaries, talk shows and reading articles here and there, I am now of the belief that many Gay men are born that way. I also believe some hetrosexual men VOLUNTARILY choose this life style. .
My heart goes out to all the gay men who have tried for years and years to hide this aspect of themselves and fought the inner battles. Anyone who has fought an inner battle or struggle should have no problem understanding the dilemma most gay youth grow up with.
On the same hand, a part of me cannot help but shudder in fear at the idea that if my (yet to be born) son or daughter was to come home and say “Mum, I am gay”… where the heck would I even start. That is why I understand how hard it is for parents to deal with the “coming out” of their children…..
Am I making sense….. I just wanted to say.. that
Yes I know my stand on this conflicts with my christian beliefs, …but this is what I say.. How can God let a child be born gay and during thier development process they have feeling for men and not women, why does he let this happen and then condem them to death… is this God working mysteriously…..where is the justice in that……
I am rambling….