I AM NOT THE WRITER I HOPED I AM OR WANT TO BE!
It frustrates me to no end that I am not bloody EXCELLENT at anything! My writing at its best is mediocre. I base that on the fluidity of the sentences, variety of vocabulary, all the other writing tools, humour and plain comparison.
I read stuff and realise that perphas I am below average. My best is not good enough.
I am away from that perfection and I WANT perfection in JUST one part of my life. Something, JUST something that I AM really, really GOOD at besides talking.
In keeping with the saying “To thine own self be true”, I realise that I am one of the millions with unrealised or rather, unidentifiable talents and therefore as of today I will focus my TALENT CHI on perfecting my body.. at least I can do that… if I want it that bad….do I?
My reasoning is simple, if I can PERFECT my body (as per my standards) then I have achieved EXCELLENCE in an aspect of my life and at my funeral my eulogy will read
“She had the perfect NATURAL body”
I have gone off the deep end today.