Life deals you cards and play you must. The matter is how you play them.
This has been the mantra I have been muttering around the house as I did my winter cleaning. Baby was back in daycare after two weeks of being at home, Big Al was off to work, I had the house to myself and a big clean was in order. As I mopped the floors, dusted and moved things around, I repeated my mantra over and over again in its various forms. “There ain’t nothing you can do about it.. just go with the flow” “worrying about it does not change a thing” “it is what it is”.
Towards the end of last year, i recieved some devastating news from my family back home. It has impacted my family in ways I cannot describe. I have cried and cried and finally accepted that what is is. I cannot delve into the whats and wherefores of it due to the fact that involves someone else’s privacy other than mine.
The new year has started good but “our issue” is with us and it will be with us as long as we live. There is absolutely NOTHING that can be done or could have been done. It is what it is.
It has brought a lot of heartache, dissention, denial, change, fear as wellas brought some of us closer. Through all this I have marvelved at the man that is my husband.
He has counseled me, cheered me, allowed me to cry and vent even when it was irrational. He has allowed me to express my inner most fears with regards to “our issue”. Not once has he shown me that “you’re on your own, that has nothing to do with me”. I thought I loved him, now I know I love him enough to do the stupid things people do when in love, ….. you know like tattoo his name on my boob! 🙂
So here it is folks. Life deals you cards and play you must! It’s how you play that matters.
so go ‘ head and play baby play!!
Yes I am a kaffir like that.. when things get ngumu I pray!
While the year is still fresh, may You… God the creator grant us strength, grace and love to face the challenges ahead! May You grant us wisdom and discernment. And when it looks like we are finished… Lord please please shine the light!