A few things about me

How come?

I don’t like her. Why? Can’t even tell you why. Not that she has done anything to me. Infact she has been nothing but friendly and nice but still I don’t like her. It’s hard to admit this since I consider myself a decent person. I just don’t not like people. But her, something about her rubs me the wrong way, a vibe, an air that she gives off that totally makes me not like her.

Am I jealous of her. That is the only other plausible reason. I try to be nice around her, infact I sought put myself in her space, a weird compulsion, but I do. I guess it is true, instict and all. My first impression of her, the very first time we met was “bitch, stupid and naive”. That was after listening to her, yet the lady who introduced me to her calls her friend. So again I ask

“Mrembo baby, are you jealous? Is it because she has “a seemingly better life, whatever that means. Is it because she seems not to have suffered, or is it her air of entitlement!”

All I know is that I don’t like her and I think my suspcisons of jealousy are the root cause and that totally IRKS me cause I DON’T DO JEALOUSY!

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Comments on: "How come?" (1)

  1. Gal on the move said:

    its lyf and yu are allowed to be human. We all get overwhelmed by some emotions we always thought we’d tucked safely away. happens to the best of us

    true but I hate it. I can count on one hand the incidences of jealousy in my life. It is an absolutely horrible feeling hence my need to work through this situation which I totally want to deny as being jealousy.. but alas the saying “to thine own self be true”…

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